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Show Me Why You're Strong by Sarn-Elyren Show Me Why You're Strong by Sarn-Elyren
OK, so this is vent art. I've had a rough couple of days. It is starting to look up, so I am doing better emotionally. But this was already nearly done, so I wanted to submit it anyway. And, I think a lot of you can relate to this as well.

So, I have this thing. I'm usually a very realistic person. I'm occasionally optimistic, but, like any person, I have my downs too. They don't happen often, but I'm the type of person who just keeps it bottled up until it explodes. And when it does, I completely internalize everything. I blame myself for whatever is wrong. I think things like "you're so stupid- you shouldn't need help" and "may as well give up, like you always do". It almost like self-abuse. I can't control it. It just happens. I think about all the bad things, all the things I haven't been able to do because I quit, or I gave up, or I couldn't handle the work, and I think... Maybe I am stupid? I also start to think about all the people in real life that I've considered friends who have left, or turned their backs on me, of just flat out betrayed me, and I think... maybe I deserve it. Maybe I am worthless. Maybe I'm not worth being loved. And if I'm not now, why would I ever be?
Usually I get out of it pretty quickly, and I have this time as well. But I wanted to post this. I usually don't post things like this, and again this relates to me bottling everything up. But I wanted to break that. I wanted to share my experiences with sadness, loneliness, fear... Because I don't want anybody to go through this. I want to help. I want to be a good person.

So, just to clarify, I am better now. I hope this doesn't spark depression in anyone, that's not the point of it.
ANYWAY! Let's get back to our positive attitude!

title is inspired by the opening song to Tales from the Borderlands Ep. 5



  •  Paint Tool Sai
  • PS Elements 5
  •  Roughly 45 Layers
  •  About 5 Hours

Copyright Statement 3 by Sophibelle       Please read. by NinjaKato   I love comments by Sedma 

Please do not re-use or redistribute!!! Please feel free to comment!

Artwork © Me, Sarn-Elyren
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Dezigre Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Love the atmoshere here. Its awesome
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Sarn-Elyren Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you so much! I appreciate it!
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13Camilla13 Featured By Owner Oct 9, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I understand this...so much.... and the worst is that people just put me down.
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Sarn-Elyren Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
That sucks... I'm sorry. :cuddle:
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AbdouBouam Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
soo much feelings, and very relatable ;-;especially the red part
first of all, I'm so sorry for bothering you in the past few days! you already had plenty to deal with!
Everyone goes through this at some point in their lives,  especially when something big changes. Honestly I was kinda expecting this with your first days of college, that's why I asked you a few times how college was going on and everything seemed fine the first times, and seeing how you are a very positive person I assumed it didn't bother you that much and it wasn't serious. I should have insisted a bit more...
anyway, back to the artwork, I really, REALLY love the colors here and the different moods they give, I find the red one relatable and "disturbing", but the blue one makes all those feelings go away and it reminds you about what you forget when feeling down.
What amazes me is that people usually associate blue with sadness, but here you made it represent happiness and hope and it fits perfectly! also the red flying "fire ashes" (no idea how they're called!) make it look hot and dangerous there and how they become snow is just amazing, and sarny loves snow (right?), which makes him feel very happy there :D
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Sarn-Elyren Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you so much for all the support! I really appreciate it!!! :love: Actually, it's not just college. I've always been like this, even when I was taking the Japanese. I'm the same way with my family as well. And I try to not show my "weakness", but I wanted to break that habit and post this. :D

Thanks for the compliments on my art! :love: I love both those colors, and as you know, blue is my favorite color. Most people see it as sad or lonely color, but I think it's strangely soft and comforting. Whereas red here is fiery and hot and can consume you.

Thanks for everything! And don't feel bad about talking to me! It actually helped to distract me. ;)
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AbdouBouam Featured By Owner Oct 8, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
understandable about the "weakness" part, it happens to everyone. If you still don't want to show it, you can find someone who understands you or has been in the same situation and just talk to that one person and no one else would know :)
But yeah, vent is amazing and does evacuation all the feelings :D

I love blue too! cyan is my favorite bright color, and oxford blue is my favorite dark color :love:
I guess it just depends on the context and what's surrounding it, and around "danger" colors, like this one, it represents calmness and you nailed it. And I think when it's surrounded by more orance color and a brighter scene in general, it represents a fresh misty sunrise near a lake :D yeah, I know, it's weird and very specific, it's one of those things you can't explain to others but seem very logical to you lol

I'm glad to hear! you can talk with me anytime if you need distractionsand possibly a dose of sarcasm and dark humour lol
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Sarn-Elyren Featured By Owner Oct 8, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Yeah, it's just tough because I don't have many IRL friends, that's part of the reason why I posted this. I wanted to show a weaker side to someone.
Vent art did help a lot!

Blue is such an awesome color, I love electric blue, sky blue, deep blue... AHHH!
That's true, to me the more "warm" colors indicate chaos and fire and disturbance, wherear cooler colors like blue are softer, calmer, comforting... :D
Wow, that lake thought sounds lovely~!

Aww, thanks so much! I really do appreciate it! :love: I can always go for some sarcasm and dark humor!
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AbdouBouam Featured By Owner Oct 8, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Well, me too, I have more fingers than friends. Like they say" it's not about quantity, it's about quality"
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Sarn-Elyren Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Haha! You like grow extra fingers just to crack the joints. XD
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AbdouBouam Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Haha xD
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RedWolfBlueLion Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I have gone through this too. It's really cool that you decided to speak up and offer comfort to othersHug 
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Sarn-Elyren Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I'm sorry you've gone through this too. And thank you! In my mind, nobody should have to go through this alone . :hug:
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MegBeth Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
I fully understand this... This is very palpable... Amazing work!
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Sarn-Elyren Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you! I hope you've never gone through this, but I am happy people can relate to it. That's why I posted it.
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MegBeth Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
... yeah I have ^^;
But like you, it doesn't happen often... and as much as it sucks, it makes me count my blessings all the more :thanks:
Also, art wise, I adore the contrast :la:
It looks phenomenal!
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Sarn-Elyren Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
That sucks, hun. I'm sorry. :hug:

It doesn't happen to me often anymore, thankfully. But everyone once in a while it just build up.

Thank you! :dummy: I appreciate it!
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MegBeth Featured By Owner Oct 8, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
It's all good :aww:
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Sarn-Elyren Featured By Owner Oct 8, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:tighthug:
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Chavra-the-serval Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Well, I keep myself positive, well most of the time, and eat my vegtables and my vitamins. That's why I'm so strong.XD
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Sarn-Elyren Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Haha, you always take things in a direction that's only slightly relevant. XD I love it!
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Feral-Spirits Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I can relate I mostly bottle things up but when I feel down I make myself a special drink (e.g A very frothy milkshake X3) Get under the covers and watch my fav film or listen to some music and draw/relax. Helps me a ton :3
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Sarn-Elyren Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Haha, it helps once I've calmed down, but while it's happening its like this whirlwind of depression. I just need to get it out, then I can work my way back up
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Feral-Spirits Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Just dont stress yourself over things like uploading, if you take a break idc if it's a mouth you take as much time as you need to recover we will fully understand :hug: 
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Sarn-Elyren Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Haha, uploading is actually one of the most consistent things in my life, lo. But thank you, that's extremely sweet and I appreciate it so much!
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Feral-Spirits Featured By Owner Oct 8, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Happy to help! Huggle! Hug Huggle! 
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Sarn-Elyren Featured By Owner Oct 8, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:tighthug:
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AmethystLioness13 Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Its the voices inside that can be the most damaging. They can drown out anything good somebody else says or can amplify anything negative. 
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Sarn-Elyren Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Exactly, they're much worse that what's actually happening.
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Toxic-the-Werewolf Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
This reminds me when I was a victim of bullying years ago... :S
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Sarn-Elyren Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Aww, I'm sorry you were bullied... that's horrible...
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Toxic-the-Werewolf Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
But I'm okay now :huggle:
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Sarn-Elyren Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Well, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger afterall. :hug:
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Toxic-the-Werewolf Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Yeah ^^ Where I am now, the pastry/bakery course, I don't have to worry about bullying anymore
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Sarn-Elyren Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Well, that's good! I'm glad you're better now!
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Toxic-the-Werewolf Featured By Owner Oct 8, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Yeah :huggle:
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HydraCarina Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2016
 I can relate to this so much. Years ago, I felt the red one almost every night, and often during the day, too. But then I learned to fight those feelings... and since then, the red side has become more and more rare.

You're far from worthless. Try your best, nobody has the right to ask for more. Believe in the positive things in life and in yourself. And remember that whatever's wrong, things will get better - maybe not in the way you hope/expect, but they will get better. We (probably) get only one life so make the best out of it. :hug:

It's such a beautiful picture, by the way! Gorgeous use of colors and lighting! :)
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Sarn-Elyren Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I used to have it nightly too. I've gotten much better, it's just sometimes it just builds up too much. But is has become a rarity.

Thank you for your kind words! I really appreciate it! It's very inspiring that you support me, and I can't iterate how much I appreciate it. Thank you, thank you so much!

And thanks! I love both blue and red,and they contrast so well!
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HydraCarina Featured By Owner Oct 8, 2016
No problem. I'm glad to hear/read that you've gotten better.
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Sarn-Elyren Featured By Owner Oct 8, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you so much for the support, I really appreciate it! :love:
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Nimitsuu Featured By Owner Oct 5, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
This is so touching, and in many ways, I think I can say I've had, and may continue to have moments as you described as well... It's really conflicting and I understand that time when that's all you could think about and it gets difficult to get out of- you're human after all! Either way, I'm so glad you're doing okay now :hug: This was really inspiring, and the drawing is gorgeous, red and blue can really contrast, yet work so so well together :'D
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Sarn-Elyren Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I think everyone goes through something like this in their life, I'm just sorry you have had to go through it. I'm happy you like the piece though! Thank you!!!
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Nimitsuu Featured By Owner Oct 8, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Definitely! No worries, you're very welcome Sarny! You're always such an inspiration :hug:
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Sarn-Elyren Featured By Owner Oct 8, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Awww, well, you inspire me with your amazing artwork!!! :love:
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Nimitsuu Featured By Owner Oct 9, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Aww thank you as well Sarn :hug:
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Sarn-Elyren Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
No problem Noymzee! :la:
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Cambion-Hunter Featured By Owner Oct 5, 2016
You are not worthless in the slightest. These periods happen, but remember, you have people who care and are supporting you. Like with this pic, keep rockin' and rollin' and never stop pushing forward, Sarn. :)
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Sarn-Elyren Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Aw, thank you for your kind words. I am feeling a lot better. I'm glad I posted this, I always bottle int up, and I wanted to break that habit.
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Cambion-Hunter Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2016
You are welcome and I understand, Sarn. Hug 
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Sarn-Elyren Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:tighthug:
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